I REMEMBER feeling you for the first time, so soft and cuddly

and feeling a sense of belonging…

I REMEMBER blowing out my first birthday candle, making a mess

and bouncing in an indoor chair…

I REMEMBER playing with my sister outdoors and in our conservatory

watching the caterpillars, chrysalis and butterflies transform in jam-jars…

I REMEMBER taking care of our pet guinea-pig, rabbit and cat

and the pony who still remains in my imagination…

I REMEMBER hearing the piano played, the fingers so fluent on the keys

and my music lessons on the guitar…

I REMEMBER playing with my friends in the park and digging

our garden with my dad and sister…

I REMEMBER trips to my grandparents in the country and in the town

celebrating family birthdays, weddings and christmas..

I REMEMBER the inner joy I always felt at christmas time, santa’s sherry

and mince pie, made possible by you and dad’s love and excitement…

I REMEMBER us going away on holidays, riding donkeys,

making sandcastles and running on the beach and into the sea…

I REMEMBER watching you wash the clothes and dishes, cleaning

the house and you teaching me to iron…

I REMEMBER loving to watch films with my dad and sister

and crackerjack at 5 to 5…

I REMEMBER your love for flowers, the smell of your roses

and admiring your green fingers…

I REMEMBER feeling rebellious, a sense of conflict between me and

the outside world and being called mary-mary-quite-contrary…

I REMEMBER finding it hard to breathe for a while and feeling

an inner urge to explore, find freedom and who I truly was…

I REMEMBER you letting me go… to begin my adventure alone,

my wings expanded in confidence, I took off to discover beyond…

The sprinkle of your love and joy has grown so big within me, flowing over
and becoming one with my own love of self…
Your nurturing is my nurturing, your love is my love, your joy is my joy,
you are and IAM one…
Each morning I awake in a bundle of love, have a sense of joy and
excitement and arise to create another best moment exploring all that is…
I turn my head around and feel your embrace, I gently kiss you
on the cheek and silently thank you for being you…